I've decided to swap blogs around. My original intentions was to do something on the Apple iPad, but have decided to leave that until tomorrow. Now, I have written soemthing based on something that happened tonight.
Every time I say something, I never think back to what it is, or was. Very occasionally, I will, mainly because I've realised what I've said. Eearlier today, that was the case, and today, we have a feeling blog. REPENTANCE.
Later on in life, I may live to either thank, or regret this blog, but hey ho. Eearlier, I said some things which were unjust, and I have thought about, and believe that they were probably tasteless and wrong remarks to make, given the situation and the timing of it all. After much delibaration, I have decided to write this mainly to try and release all the feelings and emotions I have trapped through tonight. Violence is never the key, but if you hit your head against the wall hard enough, you'll realise whats wrong and then try and make up for your mistakes. Its how everything works in life, but if you retrace your footsteps and repent what you said, then thats when things get stronger, better and they work.
Now, I believe I have made the right decision - I sat here earlier wondering whether to write this in a very blunt manner, or whether to write it very vaguely, so only those invovled know what is going on. Getting that balance was key, and hopefully, I've got it right.
I do wish I had never said the thigns I did, but I think that getting them out now will aid the possibility of things not finishing. Solve the discontent I feel tonight, because of my stupid actions towards something so small. Obviously, I do think that apologising is key, but if I apologise in public, people can only read this and know that I truly am repentful towards my mistake.
By putting everything down, I know that (hopefully) I will be able to sleep, and I will wake up tomorrow morning to a new day, and a new start. Each day, a blog is written, a diary entry is written, and a small purple dot is put on my calendar. Little dots on calendars signify the days I see Isobel.
In case you hadn't realised, yes, this blog is for her. Today, though, my calendar not only has a purple dot, but a red line as well. She knows the reason for the line, and that will stay between us, but know that Isobel, today I am truly sorry for what I said, and I mean everything I say in what else I say after writing this.
REPENTANCE, you are the Day Dedicatee for Wednesday 27th January 2010.
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